There is no such thing as a maximum for happiness!
[ she takes a step back, shaking her head in disbelief. ]
Isn't this the same thing you were yelling at me for, not so long ago? Because no one noticed and I wanted it that way? You're doing the same exact thing you said you hate!
[ she sighs, pushing the beanie back just a little. her mask is glowing a sickly green color, visible even under her hair. ]
I hate it because I don't want other people to have to go through it, Brilith. It sucks. I probably shouldn't have yelled at you for it. I just wanted you to be happy, and talking through shit calmly isn't really my thing.
[ the fight seeps right out of her just as quickly as it came, and she averts her eyes. as she speaks, her voice gets softer, until she trails off completely. ]
Of course I care. You... You remind me so much of...
[ her frown only deepens. she takes another step, and then another, and, boldly, rests a hand on brilith's arm. she's sure she's going to get batted away, but. ]
[ she can't tell beau what happened. she won't. it would be too easy for that same nightmare to occur all over again - all those good intentions, all for the sake of others, all to lead right to their own destruction. ]
...Find someone. I don't care who. Please don't do this alone, Beau.
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[ she takes a step back, shaking her head in disbelief. ]
Isn't this the same thing you were yelling at me for, not so long ago? Because no one noticed and I wanted it that way? You're doing the same exact thing you said you hate!
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[ she sighs, pushing the beanie back just a little. her mask is glowing a sickly green color, visible even under her hair. ]
I hate it because I don't want other people to have to go through it, Brilith. It sucks. I probably shouldn't have yelled at you for it. I just wanted you to be happy, and talking through shit calmly isn't really my thing.
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[ her hands curl into fists, apparently oblivious to the pain it causes, with those burns. ]
You are an idiot, Beau.
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I mean, yeah. I am an idiot, but - I didn't think you cared a whole lot about me one way or another to begin with, Bril.
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So you don't think I hate you - just that I don't care? You really do think so little of yourself and of me, don't you?
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[ she looks confused, why anger!! ]
It's not that I think little of you. I just thought... I don't know, I'm not really worth your time? Am I wrong?
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Of course I care. You... You remind me so much of...
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Someone you know, I guess. [ beau supplies, soft. ]
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...All of them. All of my old friends, and my family... [ in a whisper, she continues: ] You're so much like them.
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I guess I'm sorry and glad about that.
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I don't want to see the same thing that happened to them happen to you, too.
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I don't know what happened to them. But. [ she thinks about it for a second. ] I can try a little harder for you if you want me to.
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...Find someone. I don't care who. Please don't do this alone, Beau.
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I will. [ she just - can't tell brilith who. ] If I do, can you promise me something?
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I don't know why you'd want to. I'm not... the same person you knew.
...But if that is what it takes - then yes.
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[ she squeezes Brilith's arm, and lets go. ]
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[ she turns away, ready to flee to somewhere quiet. she needs to get ahold of herself; this is... she should be able to do better than this. ]
You may not feel that way for long.
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You always think you're more something than me. It really drives me up the wall, you know? [ but it's mostly amused. ] I'll see you later, Bril.