They care about the Brilith I was before, not the Brilith I am now.
[ but she's said this already, and galo refused to listen. to him, she is still the same woman, albeit with more anger and sadness in her soul than she could have imagined before. ]
That's no guarantee. I could easily take myself out of the picture without relying on your vote. Why should I wait and rely on a chance?
Because you wanted a way to do it without hurting people. But whoever is turning us into monsters is picking us off one by one. Plus the announcements each week, telling us to kill even more of us, and the dangerous stuff in those rooms - isn't it obvious somebody is trying to thin our numbers?
If you die outside of the voting and trials, you're helping them do that. You're helping them kill us, and win.
You think that won't hurt people, too? What about Isaac, who has already lost someone he cared for in that same way? What about the guilt complexes of everyone here?
It matters because I don't plan on there ever being a situation like Asch again! But if I fail at that, then you win. Better to sacrifice somebody who doesn't care, right?
[ and yet... the words of others who have been to visit her, to beg for much the same as galo, echo in her mind, and it turns her knuckles white. the brilith that this body belongs to... she still cares. she's still there, even as she drowns under the weight of all her other lives. it should be an easier to decision to make, she thinks.
and yet. ]
You all keep asking me to stay, and you have no idea what it means for me to live with this.
[ she's hardly convinced, and perhaps that shows on her face. by all means, she should tell him to leave, to forget her. a woman as cold and bitter as she is will hardly be worth his time. ]
You should focus more on those who wish to live, Galo. [ her voice is soft, and resigned. ] Let me be clear. There are others who have already begged for me to stay, others who rely on her far more than you. They are the reason I will accept this deal of yours.
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[ but she's said this already, and galo refused to listen. to him, she is still the same woman, albeit with more anger and sadness in her soul than she could have imagined before. ]
That's no guarantee. I could easily take myself out of the picture without relying on your vote. Why should I wait and rely on a chance?
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If you die outside of the voting and trials, you're helping them do that. You're helping them kill us, and win.
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Does it really matter how it happens, in the end?
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[ and yet... the words of others who have been to visit her, to beg for much the same as galo, echo in her mind, and it turns her knuckles white. the brilith that this body belongs to... she still cares. she's still there, even as she drowns under the weight of all her other lives. it should be an easier to decision to make, she thinks.
and yet. ]
You all keep asking me to stay, and you have no idea what it means for me to live with this.
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[He's just going to trust her, and he's going to accept he doesn't understand, but he's going to try.]
Do we have a deal?
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You should focus more on those who wish to live, Galo. [ her voice is soft, and resigned. ] Let me be clear. There are others who have already begged for me to stay, others who rely on her far more than you. They are the reason I will accept this deal of yours.
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[He doesn't need her to live for him. He just needs her to live.]
I have enough energy to focus on everybody, you included. So you're just going to have to get used to that.
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Are you done here?
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[Getting up! He'll focus his energy wherever he wants, you're not the god damn energy cops!!]