[ an elevator would have been nice, she thinks bitterly, as they make the slow ascent. she probably stumbles a few times. isaac and the wall both help her stay upright, but it doesn't stop her from breathing heavily by the top they reach the top. she's tired. this is exhausting. was any of it even necessary? ]
15... Room 15.
[ her purse is a crossbody, and hasn't left her shoulder since she'd put her dress back on after the search. she'll have to fish the key out, once they reach the door, but thankfully it's closer than her old room. ]
[ To be honest, he's tired too from carrying most of her weight, but he shows no sign of it, and never once complains. Just carries her as best he can, and he'll help her get into the room, too, once they're there. ]
[ Only once she's stable that he lets her go, and at that point he'll retreat to sit elswhere and catch his own breath for a second. That was a trip. ]
... yeah, of course. Do you need to sleep it off? I can come back later...
[ said softly - she's not trying to hurt him. even after all of that, she remembers him, and the things he's told her... even with her memories, she still cares about this child. ]
What happened... I remembered everything I hadn't before. Every one of my past lives, back to the very first I lived. Every last one of them ended in disaster.
[ Isaac's quiet for longer this time, trying to soak in the magnitude of that number and knowing he's failing. ]
... so you remembered ... what, only one before, and what happened during the trial made you -- "awaken" to all of the others? [ that was the word babo kim had used. or agni. OR WHATEVER HIS NAME IS! ]
That's right. I usually spend much of each life unaware, but eventually I remember them all. This time... between my memories and his, there was no avoiding it.
... man, during a trial was a bad time for that. Not that there’s a good time, but...
[ like, that’s gotta be EXTRA worse ]
I ... wish I knew what to say. I can’t imagine what that’s like... all I know is that I’m really sorry, Brilith. You’re ... you’re a good person, and... you shouldn’t have to hurt like this.
[ it's almost funny, how little he understands, and how sincere he is despite that. there is no arguing that he means well, but all the same... it doesn't change that she still doesn't want to live with this, if it means continuing the connection to agni.
even so, she manages to smile for him. it's sad, perhaps, and doesn't touch her eyes, but it's there. ]
You have a good heart, Isaac. I wish you could have found friends somewhere else - somewhere safe.
[ without her there, with all her memories, to hurt him again because she could never handle living with them for long. ]</small.
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[ she doesn't trust anywhere else to be quiet, to mean she'll be alone (to be free of agni). ]
Just - help me up the stairs. [ she hates this. ] Please. I need to rest until it wears off.
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[ He'll flash her a quick smile, worried though it is.
anyway OH BOY, STAIRS. this is going to be a one-step-at-a-time project, but Isaac takes it as slow as she needs, never rushing her. ]
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15... Room 15.
[ her purse is a crossbody, and hasn't left her shoulder since she'd put her dress back on after the search. she'll have to fish the key out, once they reach the door, but thankfully it's closer than her old room. ]
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[ To be honest, he's tired too from carrying most of her weight, but he shows no sign of it, and never once complains. Just carries her as best he can, and he'll help her get into the room, too, once they're there. ]
Almost there... chair or bed?
[ He'll guide her to whichever she picks. ]
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[ once he helps her sit, she goes quiet, focused on catching her breath for few long moments. ]
...Thank you, Isaac.
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... yeah, of course. Do you need to sleep it off? I can come back later...
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No. I told you that we could talk after their vote. I keep my word.
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I'm just worried, [ is what he'll say. ] I don't know what happened back there, only how upset you seemed.
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[ said softly - she's not trying to hurt him. even after all of that, she remembers him, and the things he's told her... even with her memories, she still cares about this child. ]
What happened... I remembered everything I hadn't before. Every one of my past lives, back to the very first I lived. Every last one of them ended in disaster.
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How ... many of them have there been?
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... so you remembered ... what, only one before, and what happened during the trial made you -- "awaken" to all of the others? [ that was the word babo kim had used. or agni. OR WHATEVER HIS NAME IS! ]
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That's right. I usually spend much of each life unaware, but eventually I remember them all. This time... between my memories and his, there was no avoiding it.
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... man, during a trial was a bad time for that. Not that there’s a good time, but...
[ like, that’s gotta be EXTRA worse ]
I ... wish I knew what to say. I can’t imagine what that’s like... all I know is that I’m really sorry, Brilith. You’re ... you’re a good person, and... you shouldn’t have to hurt like this.
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even so, she manages to smile for him. it's sad, perhaps, and doesn't touch her eyes, but it's there. ]
You have a good heart, Isaac. I wish you could have found friends somewhere else - somewhere safe.
[ without her there, with all her memories, to hurt him again because she could never handle living with them for long. ]</small.