He was like a brother to me. We spent like ... nearly every day together, somehow. I know he was a jerk and started a ton of fights but he was a good person and didn't deserve--
[ Isaac stops abruptly. Then he just ... shakes his head mutely. He's afraid if he tries to say anything more he'll start crying again, and he's pretty sick of crying. ]
[ so that’s… about what she’d expected. asch always struck her as the type who would be a great friend, if he’d allow someone to get that close. it’s terrible to only be able to confirm that after his death. ]
I know.
[ that he deserved better, that is. that there should have been another way. brilith hates how it worked out, but isaac has even more reason to be angry. ]
For what it’s worth… I’m glad you had someone like that here. It sounds like it was a blessing for you, while it lasted.
We've been put in this strange situation against our wills, even if they insist we agreed to it. Wouldn't most people look for something positive, even in a terrible place like this? [ that's what she's read before, and... ] I know I have.
[ Isaac sighs, the sound of it tired and a little teary, and eventually nods. ]
... being here is the first time I've actually had any friends at all in a really long time. People are nice to me, and seem like they actually want me around. Even ... even someone like Asch.
So... I get what you're saying. It's just ... it's not fair. I wish we all could have met anywhere but here.
I know what you mean. There are a lot of people here I'd love to show my home to... and it's terrible to find someone you want to spend time with, only to have it torn away like that.
[ brilith isn't sure if she can relate. she's never lost anyone that she was truly close to, not yet. but she can understand not having anyone before coming here. even now, with the priest candidates in atera, she's still very alone - maybe more alone than ever. ]
Doesn't that mean we should try even harder, though? I don't know if there's a way to save their souls, or if they've already been delivered to where they're supposed to go, but if we can find a way to do that and bring an end to the cycle, then it won't be a waste for us to have come here. He... He told me to fight for the living, after all.
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[ a pause. Isaac rubs his arm over his mouth. ]
He was like a brother to me. We spent like ... nearly every day together, somehow. I know he was a jerk and started a ton of fights but he was a good person and didn't deserve--
[ Isaac stops abruptly. Then he just ... shakes his head mutely. He's afraid if he tries to say anything more he'll start crying again, and he's pretty sick of crying. ]
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I know.
[ that he deserved better, that is. that there should have been another way. brilith hates how it worked out, but isaac has even more reason to be angry. ]
For what it’s worth… I’m glad you had someone like that here. It sounds like it was a blessing for you, while it lasted.
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[ how did he get so attached
why does it hurt so much ]
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[ a genuine question. ]
We've been put in this strange situation against our wills, even if they insist we agreed to it. Wouldn't most people look for something positive, even in a terrible place like this? [ that's what she's read before, and... ] I know I have.
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... being here is the first time I've actually had any friends at all in a really long time. People are nice to me, and seem like they actually want me around. Even ... even someone like Asch.
So... I get what you're saying. It's just ... it's not fair. I wish we all could have met anywhere but here.
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[ brilith isn't sure if she can relate. she's never lost anyone that she was truly close to, not yet. but she can understand not having anyone before coming here. even now, with the priest candidates in atera, she's still very alone - maybe more alone than ever. ]
Doesn't that mean we should try even harder, though? I don't know if there's a way to save their souls, or if they've already been delivered to where they're supposed to go, but if we can find a way to do that and bring an end to the cycle, then it won't be a waste for us to have come here. He... He told me to fight for the living, after all.
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[ huff. ]
Besides, Asch ... told me to live for him, so.
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[ she tries to smile, but it's strained. ]
If there's anything to be done to help those of us who are still here, I want to try. Will you help me, Isaac?